One sad day

It was Wednesday morning, August 31st, 2011. I woke up to the noise of my big sister leaving. She was doing a few last minute packing as I rolled out of bed and went straight to the bathroom.

'Urg,' i thought 'why do i always have to go pee in the morning?' When i got done I went back into my room. I share my room with my two sisters. I am the middle child. Yes, if you don't know what it means, I have an older sister and a younger sister. We are all 2 years apart. My younger sister was still in bed so I tapped her;

"Naomi, its time for school. Plus you gotta say goodbye to Rebecca before she leaves." Naomi looked at me with her blue tired eyes. She got her head up and tried to roll out of bed. 

Meanwhile, Rebecca was down stairs putting all her college things together. I could tell by her face that she was excited to leave but scared. She is meeting our friend J. Frost who is bring her down along with an other friend of ours at the Burlington Airport. They were going to PCC, Pensacola Christian College down in Pensacola Florida. The drive down is almost 24 hours. Rebecca in a car with two guys? I couldn't stand the thought. 

I got myself together and went through my closet to find what I should wear. I made the choice of a green t-shirt with some light jeans. 'Its the first day of school' I thought 'i don't wanna over dress.' By then it was 6:20 and Rebecca came upstairs. She opened her arms out wide for Naomi to give her a hug. Naomi went in but soon came out. Rebecca turned to me. I went in and I didn't want to let go. I haven't wrapped my head around the fact that she wasn't going to be around for a while. I was about to cry but, even though she was talking to Naomi, She said not to cry. So I didn't. She then ran down stairs to put on her shoes and leave the house. I brushed my teeth really quickly and went to my window in my bedroom. Rebecca hopped into the passenger side of my mom's blue Subaru. I went to my purse and grabbed my camera. I took it out really fast so I could get a picture of Rebecca leaving. My dad started his red Pathfinder and left the driveway as my mom followed with my sister. I turned on the camera and got a picture. It was blurry so i tried again. Perfect. Sorrow filled my heart. 'Goodbye Rebecca' i thought to myself, 'See you in 5 months.' 

This is why i'm writing

At last, here i am, once again
writing something.
But when nothing comes to my mind,
I look out the window and i realize
how special I am.
God,you have blessed me.
I've come so far
and I'm not giving up now.
You are strength
and
if you didn't know this
I thank you,
for the people you put into my life
I thank you,
for the blessings I get,
even those tiny ones.
I love you!

Dear my life

Add caption

Dear World,
I don't know about the problems that face our world from end to end.
We all know that this world isn't perfect; But we hope, only hope.
Even at the end, we'll never be able to open up our eyes.
And even through the problems of this world, so many lost ones are dying, and Christians are doing everything they can to keep those lost ones from ending up in the lake of fire forever.

Dear mom and dad,
You told me, when ever life gets hard, to hold on to something. Well, life is getting hard. We're fallin' apart.
I reach my tiny little hand out to the Heavens. And the Lord's hand comes out.
I don't understand how one minute we can be perfectly fine, and the next we're about to crumble. At times, the world isn't ending, but we are. And it never takes a day to break up a family.

Dear Friends,
I am not going crazy, as much as you want to say I am. I am slowly breaking. Leaning on God is the only thing I can do right now. He picks me up. He doesn't doubt about anything, his will is his will. He is my strength. Without him, I would be on the side of the road, on in a classroom crying and begging to know what has happened. All me and no God, makes no sense at all.

Dear God,
I am saving you for last. You know what's been going on. You know what i am going through. So, what i am asking is, help, please. I have seen your healing hand once, and i would love to see it again. I want to go home Lord. Please give me the strength to carry on. I need to complete your Will. But, I can feel myself losing. I love you.

Abby Gregoire,

My prayer

Lord,
With all i've gone through
i ask you,
to never leave me.
To show me how to care,
to love, and forgive
those around me.
I lift my voice up to you,
Lord,
I'll praise you.
In your son's name,
Amen

something different

Soon, before all you know

Everyone is changing.

People are leaving,

moving.

But when you think about the big picture

You slowly losing yourself

Till you realize

What you don't have

Is where you need to be

School Drama

It's starts off and small
but soon it grows till hatred moves
All the hearts of everyone

It builds like towers.
Claws come out
glares from across the room

Words come out
as sharp knifes were being thrown
each one slowly hurting the next

Each person tries to stop
that show
but these girls won't break up

Finally it ends
The heat is rised
Till the next day comes with a black eye

I remember...

When i think back
to the times of memory
I always go back to this place
where the sky was blue
and everything was motionless
When perfect didn't seem to make sense
And when we weren't judged
It was just me and you
all together

Creation Of Adam By Michelangelo(Only the picture)

The stained glass was dark and dirty
But the hand reaching for mine was soft and clean
I reached forward my pointer
and the hand followed mine,
Flawless.
The smell around me was musky and harsh;
the ground below me is sand.
As breath came into my nostrils

And my hearing became clear

I realized who I was

And what I am.
The Voice was strong
and Loud
Almost as thunder
in the dark sky

He spoke to me

Like no one else had

With love and mercy

He told me my name

And to always worship him

To go around the garden
and name every creature
Wolfs, zebra, jellyfish, and shark
Panda, money and lions, too
He looked at me with understanding
and called me His son.

Crying in the Rain

I feel lost
like with everything
I feel alone
i want to know
what grows in me
what causes this
I want to know,
Every inch of my heart
the scares of which are on it
and the pain that it goes through.
The holy spirit is in me
but why do i feel not?
Am i really alone?
Am i sad,
or is this a test?
Tell me
I need answers
I hate the feeling
i hate knowing
that one day
i could crash
and knowing so,
it could be the end forever

skinny

As girls we all want one thing
To show something
and be to something
We go far and large
to get that perfect body
We want to proof to people
that boy,
that swim-suit
We all wanna be one thing

Best Friendd

Your a piece of a photo
your heart glows
your heart is a mist
But,
your still the other half
more like sisters
closer then friends
<3

Street light

The day time is come
but the night will soon to follow
I would love to see
just what a man you could be
I want to fall,
so badly you see;
but my heart is like a street light
only glowing at night..
I can't opens my heart
and i can't leave my side
So understand,
this is just for tonight

Bumblebee

You fly so high,
you attracted to me,
like honey.
I keep buzzin, and buzzin
because I am fly like a bee.

Firefly

you glow in the dark
like a firefly
small and frail
but strong and bright
You carry out your dreams tonight
♥

My Shadows

I'm living in a shadow
so dark and scared
Not knowing
where all may be
the dreams that come
what the future will be

Storm of the century

Will the storm ever go away?
Or will i be stuck like this forever?
Will i be free from the winds?
Or will the rain ruin my days

Timeless

Can we ever run away from time?
is it possible?
I would love to meet a person,
who could freeze time
by just looking at it.
but the thing is,
i have.
Jesus Christ.
But, our lifes
Our own life's
are like a vapor in his eyes,
so while we think time could get any slower
God's time goes by so fast,
a day could feel like a million years
So, remember,
Treat your life well
Serve God.
You only get one life
and it's like a vapor

Perfect?

When you think of a small drop
A some piece of wondering flows through you
how long will it stay?
was it rain?
The picture of perfection
The questions you may have
But,
even the smallest
May seem big.
God created
This wonderful drop
the Perfect drop

Flip-threw

Let your memories be seen,
Let each of them speak to you
Your childhood,
don't ever forget
those are the times were you were free
You didn't have to worry about broken hearts,
You didn't have to worry about driving
or
choosing between colleges
No,
It was a free life
So remember those days
Remember that smile
And maybe,
You'll give someone else those same memories

thorns

Like a knife through your skin,
Like a prick teaching you a lesson
The scars they leave,
the memories.
But,
If we never had the pain,
the sorrow,
the sadness,
how would we grow?
How would we be able to put our knowledge to good use?

yesterday, today, & tomorrow

Yesterday is gone
now it's time to move on
Cause when your stuck on the past
you can't see your future
And when your can't see the future
Your lost
You lost the ability to see the beauty
and enjoy the gifts
So let go of yesterday

Burns

The Cuts burn

Deep down inside of me.

You stare and I watch

I fell to the floor

Your loving arms catched me

Many times I believed that I was nothing

No fairy tale

A prince charming couldn’t even save me

My pain was too powerful

My life fell apart

And You never left

My blood marked my mistakes

So now were here

With a tourch of flame

Never again, will I start to burn

♫ Musical Notes ♪

Most people look for music to calm them
to bring sense to them
to help them cop with something
But, In reality,
Does it really help them?
or just make them more depressed?

"Jar of hearts"

February is the "love" month
but how many heart breaks can you find in one month?
The darkness in the people,
the selfish reasons for "love."
So,
As people make "jar of hearts"
I'll be standing in the back
waiting for things to turn around
I might wait years
I might wait an hour
But I won't make a living of this

Truth about love

In side every fairytale
 Comes a prince and a princess
The prince always comes to recuse the princess
and then in the end,
they get married.
Everyone wishes that their true love will come
But with that,
you can't search it.
Let them come to you
Let that special love be special.
Waiting,
God will reward you

Chain and Locket

When you look into a mirror,
What are you looking for?
A different look
A different person standing in front of you
I hold a mirror close to my heart
Like a Chain and locket
It's called the WORD of God!
You see,
when you start to read this wonderful book,
You will start to notice what you do in your life
So,
The bible is a mirror
It reflects your life
How you act
My Mirror is held close with tender and care
How bout yours?

Simple Mind

Levels of Earth brings joy and cheer
But,  with a simple mind
It can be all gone
I remember,
Oh that day,
still fresh in my mind
Still burns today
When I finally found her
A part of me died
When the time came,
I was gone.
But life brings stories to tell;
So with a brief second
I face Darkness
And a brief second,
I held life

Symbol's no use

Strength is something we all need
but where is it found?
after a storm?
Open your eyes,
find out where to go
Only one person i know
Has the power to keep me moving
No symbol,
No earthly song
could keep from finding this person
It's easy,
close your eyes,
and pray to our Father in Heaven
♥

Speaks itself

Insides of beauty

As beauty lays where the heart can't reach
The affects are something that we can not read
The lines start to blur
and the fire starts strong
it burns us, deeply within
The trust that we formed
and the lies we went against
Still something stood out
Like a drop of black dirt
in white paint.
So beauty sets you on fire
then why,
why does it hurt?
As time moves on,
something starts to grow
hate and anger
Love and lust
But when the smoke finally clears
and all there is left is tears
tears and blackness
Everything is gone
everything is distroyed
Nothing is left of this beauty
  

The time has come

The time has come where we pack away the winter
Add some color to our paintings
And get outside and feel the freedom
The time has come

Love vs Hate

When you think of two differences,

one being a girl,

an other being a boy.

You think of how perfect they go together

However, when you're in love,

you just know that person.

But what hides in the heart?

Love or hate?

But the bonds that are made,

Love starts to take over

it fills the heart

with the most simplest things

But what about hate?

Could it still linger?

 Attack a lover?

When everything is so perfect

Could it make it better?

Or in fact make it worse?

Hate it like a shadow

hides deeply into your soul

And at times,

it will come out to play

play with your heart,

 like a toy.

But other times it makes you different

Like a mud puddle on a white shirt

Stains you

never gets out.

So how does these emotions get out?

How to switch love and hate?

Well, the answer is up to you

You can always choose one or the other

but a heart can never hold both

Questions but no answers

In some words,
pictures just come up
Without any meaning to them
Without any care
So why do we care so much when something is broken?
Why do we try to go out of our way to fix it?
Was it something that kept us together?
Or something that made us fall apart?
So when the road gets broken....
who's to blame?
Who's false are who's?
To many questions,
most of them left unanswered
See the point?
See the side?
when your life gets broken,
who will you blame?
The sun on the horizon,
or yourself?

Friendship

Every friend grabs each other for support
Like a mini army going into action
A family that builds you up
You take each other's love
and stand by each other
Friends come and go
But here, together
you'll last forever
Cause the strongest friend never fails you
Even when the road gets bumpy  

Impossible

 Tell me, whats the hardest thing you've ever done?
Was it lie to a teacher?
Lie to a friend?
Hurt someone?
Whatever you did
You thought it would never happen
The word...Impossible comes to mind
But the hardest thing you've ever done,
just might look simple
So those tears you cried
and those nights you fought with yourself
They unfold
You go up to them,
and wish for a different story
Till all is gone,
the pain and hurt
the cries and sobs
So, how do you look on this now?
Still Impossible?

Fall~2010

this is a picture i took myself on October 8th, 2010. It's a beautiful picture and what makes me really happy is that God is so powerful he is able to change green leaves into a wonderful creation!  

Last days...

The memory I wear stains me like blood
The time we spent today, it flows out of me like a film strip
From the first time we kissed
till those last moments together
From our first date
till the last time i held your hand
From the first time we shared our secrets
till the last time I held you in my arms
Forever, burned within me

Pieces

Beauty doesn't come from the looks
But when you start to show
something in dept
something that no one else knows
you'll start to see
the ripple affect
Pieces of the water move away
and the beauty will show
Your heart and soul
your mind and all
 

My favorite song

"I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
And You told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours"
Casting Crowns, Who i am

Dreams Last forever

I don't wanna give up on some we have.
I know you know the feeling
The love,
The need to be next to each other.
So I'll take your hand.
And we can tour the world together.
Me and you.
'Cause babe,
With you,
Dreams last forever

My Future....

I took this picture last year, but i think the point still stays the same. Guitars make beautiful music when you know how to play them right. I know how to play the guitar. And at times I get mad at the guitar or the notes i'm reading when I forget what they mean and play the wrong note. But God doesn't want us to give up. He doesn't want us to stop reading the bible because we didn't know what a verse means or when we "Play the wrong note." 

God never ever seems to stop blessing me. He has given me a wonderful family (even though at times i get highly annoyed by them) And a wonderful Christian family and a good church family as well. And when i think about the beauty he created, (Genesis 1.12) I think of the wonders he has blessed me and I could never thank him enough besides giving myself to His works.
God, thank you! ♥

Valentines Day

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life." John 3: 16

Awaken

I've realized were i went wrong and I went and fixed it. I'm sorry if i said something about you. I don't want any angry in me anymore. It bring in way to much wickedness in me, and I live by the Lord. And having that block my relationship with him, Its not fun. I'm sorry for being mad at you, i'm sorry for thinking you lied to me. I've awakened and realized what was really happening

Life moments

In some days my fury is burned.

Some harder then others. Some less and less

But as i take a closer look,

i start to notice

What was it that i missed? What was it that i need to replace?

was it important, or just a lie?

Whatever has happened, i'll let it go

Maybe tomorrow will show all the games